I wrote a message to my child
I tied my message to a string
I held on tightly to the string
I felt the wind tug on my hand
The wind was pushing me so hard
Then came the time to let it go
Observing through my salty tears
I watched until they disappeared
I love you little one
Copyright © Sharon K. 2000
To listen to the song Click HERE
The Memorial Service
On Thursday 3rd August, 2000, I attended a Memorial Service for the Heart Children who have died. Although Michelle did not die because of her heart defect or surgery, she was still a "Heart Child", having had major heart surgery in July 1993 at the age of two on her AV Canal defect, (associated with her having Down Syndrome).
During the service we were invited to write a message to our child on a red heart shaped card and after the service we attached our messages to red balloons bearing our children's names. We then went outside to the hospital garden to sing another song, and release our balloons. It was very windy and I was afraid of letting go before I was ready to, so I held on tightly to the string.
It came the time to let go of my balloon. It was such a cathartic experience to release that balloon. I feel like I let go of Michelle at the same time on some level. I watched her balloon and although it wasn't the first one released, it appeared to take the lead. I kept my eyes fixed on it and all the others disappeared into the clouds, leaving hers alone momentarily, then some reappeared. I watched it until it disappeared into a tiny speck in the sunlight.
It was a very moving experience and I am so grateful to Heart Children New Zealand Inc for organising that Memorial Service and giving us the opportunity to join together in remembering our darling children.
I wrote the above poem that night and the next day I turned it into a song. I have a very amateurish .mp3 file of it, with me singing it, and if you would would like to hear it, click here to download it, or chat with me below or leave a message and I will e-mail it. The file maybe too long to download from this page.
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